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The Struggle
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<span class="border-r border-gray pr-2 mr-2">October 18, 2023</span>1520 words, posted in <a href="/articles/tag/article/">article</a> and <a href="/articles/tag/general/">general</a>
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<p>This is a get stuff of my chest article. Probably going to be a mixture of ranting and whining. If
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that is not your cup of tea then feel free to skip this article.</p>
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<h2>The struggle</h2>
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<p>It has been one of those “when it rains, it pours” type of weeks. As write this, I feel like a baby
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/ complainer, which is not my intention, but here it goes.</p>
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<p>My aunt had a stroke and is likely not going to make it through the week. My aunt has always lived
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in Florida during my life / memory, but has always come to visit. She is my mom’s oldest sister (9
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years apart), so she helped raise my mother growing up. They’ve always had a close relationship and
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are like two peas in a pod. They would always visit us, especially while my grand-parents were still
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alive. She is currently not really awake or expected to make it. She does not eat / drink and
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they’ve basically just been making her comfortable.</p>
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<p>One of my employees broke his neck over the weekend. I don’t have a ton of details on this subject,
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but he had surgery to fuse some discs back together and should eventually be ok, however it will be
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a long recovery time.</p>
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<p>A few weeks ago, I commited one of the deadly sins of running a blower door test without checking /
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asking about the fireplaces, which caused lord knows how much damage from the soot that was spread
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throughout the living room(s).</p>
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<p>An online friend lost her mother.</p>
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<p>All of these things have just got me emotional.</p>
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<h2>My secrets</h2>
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<p>I am an emotional person, sometimes to my detriment. I’m prone to fits of anger and depression. I
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spent many years masking things through alcohol abuse and many other idiotic tendencies. I still
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drink on occasion, but not as I once did.</p>
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<p>I often put my faith in folks, even if I haven’t met them in person, this can often lead to being
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let down. I guess I struggle sometimes with the reality of online relationships. I think that people
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are genuine, because I’m that way (how I act online is the same as I act in person for the most
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part). I will happily show / share the good and the bad, in hopes that someone may learn. This is
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not at all something to be ashamed of, or anything that I’d like to change, however it does on
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occasion lead me into turmoil when I find out some true identity / personality of someone.</p>
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<p>I hold grudges, like forever grudges. It is very hard for me to get over somethings, even if I want
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to. I can sometimes put things out of my mind, but when I’m spinning, they will resurface. I want to
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forgive people, but it is just not the way it works for me often times. It takes a lot to get me
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beyond my breaking point, but once someone has gotten me there, there is likely no turning back for
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that person. Luckily, I can count on one hand the number of folks that I’ve had to cut out of my
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life for these reasons. I’d love to say that I’m a bigger / better person, that I forgive them, but
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truthfully I do not.</p>
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<p>My emotions sometimes make me say things publicly that I should keep to myself. I don’t have a lot
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of regret around these things, because I generally mean what I say, and also feel we are entitled to
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opinions as well as entitled to change those opinions as often as we see fit. Although I don’t
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regret them per-se, it does make me wonder what type of impression it leaves (something for future
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pondering, perhaps).</p>
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<p>I’m one of those that says “I don’t care what they think about me”, when I really do care what
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people think about me. This often leads to fear and anxiety, especially in social settings. I’m not
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the greatest at conversation, I’m better at writing or some interaction that gives me a bit of time
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to think before responding. Therefore, I’m quick to make a joke or something rather than having
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thoughtful / genuine responses.</p>
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<h2>Community</h2>
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<p>All of these things have just got me thinking about community. Community is an aspect that seems
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distant nowadays, even though we have more opportunity than ever. We call ourselves part of
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communities, especially online, but I’m not convinced that it is really community (or at least not
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most of the time, not saying it can’t be / in absolute terms).</p>
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<p>I have met a lot of folks online that I consider true friends. Friends that I would do anything for
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and feel they would do anything for me, just like my real life friends who have stuck with me for
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many years. These are people that challenge me and how I think on a regular basis. They do their
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best to lift me up when I’m down.</p>
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<p>It’s easy to hide when so much of our interactions are not really in person, to feel like the
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relationships we do have are not genuine, but that’s awfully cynical. I prefer to give people the
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benefit / trust they deserve until, at least until they don’t then see my part about holding grudges
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;)</p>
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<p>Do you ever feel the same? Instead of being cynical and down, today, I’m trying to be positive. I’m
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trying to share a little bit of what I feel community should be. Although, I’ve never met HVAChicks
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Jennifer in real life, I read today about her mom and decided to take an hour or so to put together
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a website for the <a href="https://hvachicks.com">HVAChicks Community</a>, hoping it would bring a moment of
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happiness to her day. While I’ve deployed several websites in the past, this one for some reason was
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a total PITA, but I got through it. I could feel how grateful she was when I shared it with her (and
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it’s basic AF), but that truly made me feel useful / great after being down in the dumps for a bit.</p>
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<h2>Conclusion</h2>
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<p>I’ve probably rambled enough and am losing direction here, so I will end with a few things.</p>
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<li>Build the community around you that you want / deserve.</li>
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<li>Don’t be so quick to pass judgment.</li>
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<li>Spend time with your loved ones, while you can.</li>
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<li>Tell someone you love them.</li>
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<p>Finally, I’d like to shout out some people that I’m grateful for. This is non-exhaustive list, if I
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left you off, I’m sorry and please do not take it personally.</p>
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<li>Bryan Orr
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<li>Bryan has cultivated an awesome group / community that I’m proud to be a part of. His time and
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commitment to the HVAC industry is something that I hope he himself is proud of. Without Bryan,
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mostly all the following names would not even be in my vocabulary.</li>
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<li>Ty Branaman (forget exactly how to spell his last name).
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<li>Ty has such a great personality during his videos / training and I’m sure it’s a struggle to be
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positive all the time, however it brings me hope and joy everytime!</li>
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<li>Dustin (mother f’n) Cole
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<li>Dustin is like a brother that I never had, he’s a true master of his craft and I know that I
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can rely on him anytime I need it!</li>
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<li>Genry Garcia
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<li>The cuban crusader who has taught me so much about home performance, and especially ZPD (baby,
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baby)!</li>
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<li>Chris Hughes
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<li>It’s hard to put into words here, but I know that Chris is there to talk when I need it and
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he’s a great motivator because of his action items :)</li>
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<li>Eric Kaiser
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<li>I think genuine when I think of Eric, I hear his voice in my head when I write reports because
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of guidance he has given in the past. He truly wants to help teach people.</li>
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<li>Michael Cianfracco (??)
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<ul>
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<li>Man does he make me laugh and we share a passion for the 4-Roses.</li>
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</ul>
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<li>HVAChicks Jennifer (I’ll butcher her last name from memory)
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<ul>
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<li>Jennifer is inspiring with her goals and everything she does to help anyone in the industry. I
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can’t wait to meet her in person one day soon!</li>
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<li>HVAC Overtime Crew
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<li>I’m lumping these guys together because I truly enjoy when I’m able to make their live stream
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on Friday’s. And I interact with A-Team a lot and really appreciate him / them!</li>
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</ul>
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</li>
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<li>Alicia Hollon
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<ul>
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<li>Alicia is so awesome to me, I mean she just made my favorite pancakes and sausage for dinner,
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love you babe!</li>
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<p>Lastly, I have to shout out to my mom. I know she’s going through a rough time with my aunt
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currently. My mother is the kindest gentlest soul that I’ve ever met. I look up to all 5’ of her!</p>
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<p>At any rate, thanks for sticking it out to the end through my ramblings. Be kind to someone today
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and tomorrow!</p>
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HVAC business owner with over 27 years of experience. Writes articles about HVAC,
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